I made the decision to apply for university because in the end, I thought ‘why not?’ If I changed my mind, I could always defer my place but at least I would have it. So that’s what I did! I applied and ended up with a unconditional offer! I can’t even tell you how excited I am to think that this time next year I will be attending university, studying a subject I love. I know it won’t all be fun and games but the excitement at the moment is overruling that thought. I just need to get the motivation to not give up (I am pretty sure that was a line from an Eminem song…) and overcome any hurdles I am faced with.
I’ve been pretty absent from my blog at the moment because I have been trying to figure my head out. That sounds pretty dramatic but I just had no idea what I was doing or what to write about so there wasn’t much point in writing. I just wanted to stop and have a good think about everything. So I went over to my friend’s house and had a little cry. I just needed to get all the weird feelings out and just have someone listen. They weren’t big problems but I was having a bit of trouble organising my thoughts and I felt like I was trudging through thick fog everyday. After that, I felt better and a little more together, the brain fog cleared.
So now I have my place and I know that this is what I want to do, I can cope with the difficult situations within my work life because I know that I’m not stuck in an industry that doesn’t truly make me happy. I just can’t wait to start this new chapter of my life.